Bad luck? Good luck? Hidden evils within blessings?

OK!

So here is my very first blog post in my entire life! And I'm sad to say that I am starting this off in a rather bad mood. (Damn!) I should have waited for another day, but i just have to get this off my chest. I want to question, why life becomes so "crappy" sometimes. We know we all go through the highs and lows of everything, and its all part of the process called life. But still, what happens when both things concurrently happen? What kind of emotions are felt? What am I suppose to feel? React? Here is my very first blog post ever! Don't think anything bad of me, like I'm depressed or something like that because in reality I'm not! I just start to wonder...

OK straight to the point. I got a parking fine twice in less than a week!(くそおおおおお!) But at the same time I also recently got a job, moved houses, made new friends, finished university exams etc. A big pat in the back for me and at the same time a big slap in the face. Now, for me, the road to getting this job was long and hard, therefore I feel really really blessed to be offered this job. What do I do? I'm a Games Consultant of course!

The side story (a very big sidetrack but I don't care since I feel crap at the moment). Here's my memories in words:

"A few weeks ago, I got offered 2 job interviews. One of them was for my current job now & the other for Cotton On (a fashion retailer); these two interviews were held on the same day! (しまった!) One, the interview for my current job was on the other side of Sydney (near the beach area). As for I, my residence is in the west. So whenever I think of eastern Sydney, "Far out! A treck around the world!" would always pops in mind. This started in the morning which made it worse since it takes me an hour and a half to get there, and finished in the arvo (that included job training). The bad thing was waking up early. The Cotton On interview was held in west Sydney, which is basically the other way and was held in the afternoon. Now you may be thinkin... "that works! you can go to the one in the morning then the one in the afternoon". Oh how I wished it was that easy when the trains weren't even running that day!

To me, planning & timetabling that day to perfection was near the work of gods! I probably planned on jumping 5 different train lines in a day which was retarded! I full wrote out my timetable for the day; best times to catch the train, which train line would take me there the fastest, what happens when I am this many minutes late etc. The whole day was a freaking optimization problem! I hate maths!

I don't want to go into detail into how my day went. But, more importantly I fortunately got through the interview process and my life was saved! In my mind all I was thinking was "Oh my God! I'm rich!" For a cheap guy like me, that kind of thinking is expected. As for the 2nd interview with Cotton On, I decided to ditch it. That time, all I was thinking was "which job would give me the best experience?", and so I thought that Games Consultancy was best since it requires non-passive customer service. At Cotton On I thought all you do was just stay in the counter and do the usual retail shopkeeper thing which didn't sound interesting. So I stayed for the whole day for the job training for games consultancy.

My job is basically set up a stall within Myer (I don't work under Myer, but I work at Myer), and expose the products that my company produces (puzzle/board games etc); approach customers and tell them that those things are the best thing in the world & that everyone should have one! A exciting as it may sound, that excitement only lives in dreams. I do try and sell them! BUT let's face it, the world is already in a shamble; adding more problems & puzzling conplexities to people's lives won't really put them at ease. It's like selling armageddon to customers! Not to mention it's also 'pwning' my morale everytime I get rejections. So that is my job.

BUT! oh my! Little did I know back that that I would regret that decision later on. Right now, in my current life situation I prefer a lazy job over anything strenuous any day! Sigh, such is life."

OK I finished venting that part of my life, now back to the real point. I am basically working to pay off my fines. This type of situation I can consider it as a hidden evil amongst all my blessings. Sometimes I wonder if it was in God's plan for me to work just to pay off the fines. Right now I am breaking even in the finance department. (良かった!) Breaking even is always a good thing. If I was ever in the negatives my parents would disown me for being irresponsible. Not to mention I would also lose my right to drive in the family & be hungry for a while. I am joking, that's exaggerated. But the reason we work is to get money, not to pay for our mistakes.

Well to be on the optimistic side, this whole situation will be over in 2 weeks. But on the pessimistic perspective, that's 2 weeks of continual bad luck. Getting a job surely was a blessing & good luck, but getting fined twice in a week... such is life. I also have myself to blame for this. I failed to maintain a presence of mind; sometimes I just do & not think about the consequences.

Bad luck, good luck, concurrently hand in hand; I have chosen to feel happy & to keep smiling and be optimistic since pessimism can make life monotonic. As part of growing up, taking one step forward despite difficulties; surely we can all grow from experiences like these right?

OJ signing out.